Year 2014

2013 made me realise that time really goes by so fast. A lot of things can happen in a year - gain new friends, build stronger and more meaningful relationships with the people around you, fall in and out of love, discover new things, go to different places, face numerous challenges, experience failure and success and more. 

To be honest, it's hasn't been the easiest year - I knew that on the day I got back my results because I knew that the year wasn't going to turn out the way I planned. After much debate, I made the decision to re-take my 'O' level exams. I knew it was going to be a year of hell and escape. I literally try to avoid every person (adults mainly) on the streets/outside just in case they strike a conversation about "so whr are you studying now? how was your results?" but slowly I realise that what others think of me really doesn't matter. What's the point of letting them see only a persona carefully crafted for likeability? And I guess that was my main lesson in 2013, that it is more important to focus on your best than if others think you are good enough. 

Despite it all, 2013 was very good to me. In fact, it opened doors to new opportunities, challenges that made me stronger, decisions that made me grow as a person. Ultimately, I discovered myself more in 2013, who I am and what I really want in life.

It has been the most insane year, full of amazing adventures and unforgettable memories. And for that I'd like to take the chance to thank a few groups of people and also share some of my new year's resolution for 2014:

Family to me is upmost importance. My mum always says that family is everything, friends come and go but family will always remain. They will always have our back and accepts us for who we are. And for this I am extremely thankful. I am thankful for the most supportive parents, more than loving grand parents and even aunties and uncles that shower us with selfless and unconditional love. 

I would've never survived 2013 without Bernard. From the beginning of this year, he was there and watched me cry and struggle through all the uncertainties and failures. More importantly he gave me strength and loved me through the good and the bad. Thank you B.

The constants in my life throughout all these years, not just in 2013. One of my favourite group of friends and the people who matters. Here's to the nights that turned into mornings with friends that turned into family / because family isn't always blood. It's the people in your life who want you in theirs; the ones who accept you for who you are. 

The best bunch of people I met this year. My happy pills five times a week, the reason why I loved going to school and a motivation to work hard and do well. They are one of the best things that happened to me this year and I will definitely miss them. 

Thankful that after three years and while going our separate ways, we are all still in contact and regularly meeting up, G7 in particular <3 

Thank you family and friends for being a part of my memorable year x

New year resolutions for 2014

1) Spend more time with my family - i'm hoping that as I just turn legal, it wouldn't be a point of rebel. This year I want to make an effort to be more filial and loving, especially towards my parents.

2) Be open-minded to accept criticism - accepting (even effective and potentially helpful) criticism to me is difficult. This year I want to be open to receive criticism as I will be able to learn from mistakes. 

3) Do better in school - my results are coming out in two weeks time and no matter which school I end up in, I wish to do my best and excel. 

4) Get fit and lose weight - to achieve this, I even bought pre-workout powder (hahaha). I wish to spend more time in the gym and shed some pounds this year.

5) Be financially stable - start a savings plan and stick to it. 

6) Leave the country - breaks away from this tiny red dot is necessary every year. This year I hope to save enough to fly to London to visit my best friend and have a nice holiday! BKK will be the first stop in March, looking forward.

7) Be less active on social media (when i'm with my family or friends) - urhm I also want to stop caring about how many people "like" my Instagram photos or what people think about the pictures I post. If I like the photo enough to post it, what else matters? SOCIAL MEDIA ANXIETY IS A WASTE OF TIME!!!

8) Meet more new people - some people say I look unfriendly or appear so, entering a new school this year, I hope to make more new friends. 

9) Work 2X harder on my relationship with Bernard - this year will be entirely different with a new environment, I hope all these changes will mould us and only make this relationship better. 

10) Be more careful with my items - just today my friends were debating on how long it will it take for me to lose my new iPad. This year I wish to be more careful and less careless with my belongings. 

~ 2014 IS GOING TO BE BETTER, HAPPY NEW YEAR ~